About a Recent Post

About a week ago I made a post venting my feelings about certain situations and things that have happened in my family. If you want to confront someone about it, confront ME, I'm the one that wrote it, I'm the one that has those feelings, get upset with me. However, I AM NOT APOLOGIZING FOR MY FEELINGS!! I honestly don't feel that I should, there were MY FEELINGS and PERSONAL perceptions and views of how things have been. People have been mad over what I wrote and I cannot blame them I know it was written harshly, but did it make you even think or consider how I feel, or just get pissed at me? Haven't you ever said things that you felt, but didn't say them in the most appropriate way? That you spoke before you truly thought about it? If you never have I commend you, I however have not gotten to that point in my progression. It was a venting session of raw emotions. I feel strongly and experience in my life has shown for me personally that I NEED vent sessions of those raw emotions because I am better able to acknowledge them and work my way through them and over them. If I don't then they get pushed deep inside me and then I justify that I really didn't have those types of feelings, but later they come up, so why not deal with them when they are first there? I hope that it has made some people think. I want to make my blog real, not some sugar-coated, peachie keen thing, because life is not that way and I cannot and will not promise not to write my feelings again on this blog. I could make it private, so only the few that I give access to can view it? So, I may take that into consideration. And people are right that I could have gone about it a different way, but do you want me to vent to your face? And to be honest I have never felt comfortable expressing my thoughts, feelings, viewpoints to family members and a whole nother issue of feelings that I will not go into. No, not that I'm aware of have ever done what I did, but they are not me and I'm not them and I need to stop comparing myself to others and to be what others want me to be, I want to be accepted for who I am and for people to truly get to know what I am and not try to make me into the person they want me to be and act like they want me to act, feel what they want me to feel and do what they want me to do. I have covered up for WAY to long. I need to be myself, but I can learn to be better as well and I hope others will learn as well. It has happened, its posted, it has been read, there is nothing that can be done to change it (I was told this concerning another past incident), but what I'm writing now and to learn and change things in the future. I honestly just feel that I couldn't vent face to face. I cried on Shane about it and just felt writing it would help me too. So much stuff came up as I was writing the post that is why I needed to deal with the raw emotion. I didn't do the things that I felt like doing, I knew they were irrational and uncalled for, but when you are so hurt by those you feel should love and accept you for WHO you truly are, then that is what came out initially. I may get yelled at again for this post because...because people reading it will know what I'm talking about, because they don't want it on here, but I'm 29years-old! I thought I should write an additive and post it.